I want to ask someone if I should but I know what they will say. And think about it. Once you send that text. All that anxiety for the wait. Omg u do not want to feel that. Because he may never reply.

things i want to say to you:

happy new year

ill be in new york next weekend, wanna meet up?

ugh i wanna cry. my body fucking aches. but why. you were so mean to me. UGHHGHGHGHGHGHHGGHGHGHGHGHHGHGHGHGHHGHGHGGHGHH

i really want to message you saying happy new year. but im so scared. so scared. you met someone else by now. you changed your number maybe. youve forgotten about me. im just so scared. i feel so much pain in my body and my mind but this pain, i can feel it making me stronger. 

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I don’t feel jealous when I see lovey things from couples. All I think of is “oh yeah I felt that way too, it was really nice but now it’s time for me to move on and not care about all that lovey bs”

Guys are only douche bag because they’re not interested in you lol